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Meditations In Wonderland

August 24th, 2014

She eyes me like a Pisces when I am weak.

A little throwback to last weekend! Can you tell I’m ready for fall?

Namaste and happy Sunday,


August 23rd, 2014

In case I’m a little slow to answer messages over the next few days, Cezar and I are moving on Tuesday to the upper east side! I’ll do my best lovely souls!

Namaste and piles of packing tape,


August 21st, 2014

For good vibes and aesthetics, and all things Meditations In Wonderland:

follow me on insta @loveannapatrick

with a fair amount of cameos from Eleni Kalliopi!

August 10th, 2014


Taking each chapter by storm for final edits, 5 chapters down 8 to go!

August 10th, 2014

17k followers? You guys are the coolest



I mean it!

I think when 20k happens I’ll have to do a pretty serious giveaway, just a heads up.

As always if there’s something you want to see more of just inbox me! Always happy to connect.



July 25th, 2014
How do you see yourself in your spiritual growth? Are you enlightened or near it?

Hi anon,

Oh gosh. Thank you for your question, and for your confidence in me! But the answer is a firm nope nope nope.

I don’t subscribe to enlightenment. It’s difficult for me to conceive of a soul that’s ever finished, complete and perfect.

Deep down I feel that the universe doesn’t reward perfection, it rewards expansion. That’s what it’s doing after all.

But to answer the core of your question I think I’ve acknowledged many of the primary lessons I need to learn in this life, this go around – that is to say that I know what they are, I know what I need to work on, I know what I’m here to do. That in itself was a tough battle but I’m so grateful for it. The awareness at least gives me the chance to see day to day opportunities that arise to put those lessons to the test, to see if I grow or crumble.

Being aware is one thing, actually evolving and learning the lesson fully is another. Some of the lessons I’m here to learn are long-term, I think they’ll take a lot of growth across the board over many different experiences to help me truly fulfill them, most likely they’ll span across my whole life time. Others are short-term and can be taken care of relatively quickly, and once they’re sorted through some others will pop up, hungry for resolution. Realizing the difference between the two is another difficulty that spiritual growth can help to determine.

So I’m not sure if I can answer your question in the way you intended… I’ll never be perfect. I’ll never be finished. Boiled down that’s just what enlightenment seems like to me. I’ve taken multiple years of Buddhist classes, both in high school and in college, and that’s just what it always came down to it seems like. Truthfully I would never be content with that even if that weren’t true, my energy only seeks to expand, to go forward, and to never stop learning.

It’s a reality I think I’m coming to terms with through working on my novel, actually, because it’s a microcosm of the spiritual journey itself in many ways, or at least of my own. It’s “done” according to the definition of finished but I keep turning it over and over again in my palm anyway until the time comes when my intuition tells me its ready.

The difference between done and ready, spiritually, might be actually what I’ve been getting at this whole time.

I really appreciate your question, it gives me an opportunity to look within and I’m very grateful for that! Thanks so much for lending your energy here.



July 15th, 2014

An Excerpt From My Upcoming Novel, “Meditations In Wonderland,” Meet Elizabeth

Hi everyone,

I wanted to thank you all for all of the likes, reblogs, comments, and inboxes I received after I posted my first excerpt (which you can read here). I still can’t believe I reached 100! So as a thanks, I wanted to elbow my demon of self-doubt in the ribs by posting a second one.

One good turn deserves another, right?

Also as a thanks, I will be following everyone who likes/reblogs/comments/sends me a message about this excerpt. Because contributing your energy to this blog has left fingerprints on me and my writing in a way that can’t and won’t go unrecognized. So it’s my deepest and sincerest hope that you enjoy this!


In this excerpt of Meditations In Wonderland we get a chance to look intimately into my protagonist, 24-year-old Elizabeth, as she confronts her biggest demon: herself.

Elizabeth stumbled into the bathroom and groped the wall for the light switch with the needy but precise fingers of someone functioning from the blurred state between being awake and being asleep, where the subconscious mind still pulls the strings.

The light streaming in from the window behind her caught the medicine cabinet mirror, beckoning her. She flicked the light on, and rubbed her temples as she approached the sink. She couldn’t reach for her toothbrush. Instead her hands gripped the sides of the sink, her white knuckles complemented the porcelain as she held in a scream. It wasn’t the toothbrush she was after this morning.

“Almost there…” Elizabeth murmured as her eyes grew closer and closer to catching her own gaze in the mirror. Invisible needles pricked her spine as her eye contact grew more imminent, making her damp grip slide on the porcelain. Slowly, slowly, her eyes inched upward to meet themselves in her reflection.

When they finally connected she thought they looked like black holes, despite the fact that they were really a dark shade of green. To her they looked like doll’s eyes, as if behind their luster resided secrets long withheld, locked away beneath their glassy depths, entombed in a place few dared to reach. She saw the inset wrinkles on her forehead, and the faded acne scars. She saw the thin, white scar above her left eye where her childhood cat scratched her long ago. She saw the delicate skin under her eyes as an abyss of purple and twisted veins. The sight of her canvas of skin and sunken eyes made her furrow her brow, which only made the storylines on her face grow deeper. They began to look like trenches, and when Elizabeth tugged at them they only fell back into place like obedient soldiers. An acidic revulsion crawled through her and made the hairs on the back of her neck stand at attention.

As she looked away the goose bumps that dotted her neck subsided, leaving her body cold. She picked up her toothbrush and threw it at the sink with such force that it was as if she wanted it to fly down the drain and reappear in another dimension.

“Ellie? You alright in there?” said her boyfriend, Adam, who sat with Fitz, their French bulldog, just feet away on the living room couch.

 “Yeah, I’m fine,” she called out to him, her pulse racing again, “I just dropped something.” It was on days like this that the studio apartment they shared took the form of a small labyrinth, with each sound reverberating against the walls and closing in on them in a broken chorus. She unwrapped her fingers from the sink and splashed cold water on her face.

“What’s wrong with you!” her internal monologue began, right on time, “Who can’t look at themselves in the mirror? Are you crazy?”

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As always, thank you for reading.


July 12th, 2014

Life via the camera roll

I realized today that I haven’t done one of these in awhile. Here’s a peek into the last month or so!

Since it’s summer Cezar and I escaped from the jungle for a bit. It was a nice break because Brooklyn has been HOT. So hot.

Most of the pictures are from the fourth. It was a bare feet in the grass kind of night, my kind of patriotic!

If you want more join me on Instagram.

Namaste and I hope you all had a bright fourth,


June 21st, 2014
What advice can you give on eating healthy and being fit? I try to be as healthy as possible, but always end up stopping a week into it. How do you stay so damn beautiful???

Oh my jeeze thanks! All I can really say for myself, to quote Raj Koothrappali, is that I have a pretty balls to the wall moisturizing regimine.

I’m not a registered nutritionist or physiologist so I don’t really like to dish out too much, because what do I know, but here is my health sphere in a nutshell:

I’m a vegetarian and have been for my whole life so my diet is primarily fruits, vegetables, dairy and starches (in that order) and I take supplements for iron, magnesium, D3 and MK7, which was prescribed by a holistic nutritionist I worked with. I drink a spoonful of cod liver oil almost every night. I do have a sweet tooth though, and I let myself have that. Partially because I live with my boyfriend and boys will be boys when it comes to having that kind of food around, and also because I want what I want and I don’t want to live in a world without cookies.

In terms of working out I learned a lot from a personal trainer I worked with for awhile so my routines work for me but I strongly encourage everyone to do what feels right for them, whether it’s working out or diet-related. That’s what will keep you from stopping a week in. You don’t even have to go to the gym if that crushes your soul, find something you love that’s active! I love yoga and horseback riding, outdoor runs and kickboxing. Do what fulfills you and it won’t feel like a workout.

Ultimately it’s all about what you can manage. Don’t throw yourself into a workout routine or diet that doesn’t serve you.

Namaste and green smoothies,


June 15th, 2014
I learned it all from the coolest of the cool.

Hope you all had a beautiful Father’s Day! I spent the day with my dad watching nothing but sports, from soccer to his all-time fav, basketball. And all the teams we wanted to win won!


I learned it all from the coolest of the cool.

Hope you all had a beautiful Father’s Day! I spent the day with my dad watching nothing but sports, from soccer to his all-time fav, basketball. And all the teams we wanted to win won!


June 1st, 2014
Hello :) What are you favorite books? Not necessarily spiritual ones, just fiction. I'm looking for some good reads for the summer time! Thank you :)

This is my favorite question, by the way!

Great timing too, since BEA (BookExpo America) just came to a close, and I’ve been reading mostly fiction lately.

I’ve found that for me nothing liberates the heart like fiction, and great fiction liberates the soul too.

First you should know I’m biased toward Russian literature. Nothing fills me up in the literary world more than Dostoevsky. My favorite book of all time is Crime and Punishment. Followed closely by The Brothers Karamazov. In my world Dostoevsky is king, the beauty of his prose and the rawness of his mind leaves me with all my words stuck in my throat, and that’s saying a lot for me! Next, if you’re in a whimsical mood The Master and Margarita by Bulgakov. That one sticks to the ribs. If you like weird (and I like weird) things always get strange with Gogol (“The Nose” especially!). Fathers and Sons by Turgenev captured me a lot more than I thought it would, he touches on a lot of themes that are still true today. As for a little more modern Russian lit, Nabokov for always and always! I actually liked his memoir, Speak, Memory more than Lolita, but they’re both great. I’m planning on reading The Idiot by Dostoevsky this summer.

A recent fiction favorite is Tenth of December by George Saunders. If you’re into short stories he’s one of the best, always touches the tender spots and ruthlessly humanizes, really beautiful. I’m not always a fan of short stories, but read a lot in college. Raymond Carver’s Where I’m Calling From is on my list!

For the classics, Heart of Darkness really impacted me. It’s one of only two books I’ve ever read twice (the other title is below). The only book I’ll likely read a third time. It’s a novella, too, only about 40 pages in most versions.Read it and then watch “Apocalypse Now”! In Cold Blood by Truman Capote is one that followed me like a shadow for years, and I read it my junior year of high school! Capote is on another level, I have no doubt you’ll take something away from his writing.

I’m not afraid to admit that I love anything dystopian, including dystopian YA when the mood strikes me. I recently read The Hunger Games trilogy, and loved that, although I had my fair share of criticisms there. But that’s the fun part! I’m planning on reading the Divergent series soon by Veronica Roth. For classic dystopians I loved 1984, it’s the second book I’ve read twice. The Road still floats around in my mind after being introduced to Cormack McCarthy my senior year of college. I literally couldn’t put it down, I think I read it in two days.

Currently I’m reading The Invention of Wings by Sue Monk Kidd, it’s the first book I’ve read of hers and I’m impressed so far. I’m really invested in both main characters (although not both equally, though that balance may shift, we’ll see!). She has beautiful prose. Sometimes I’m struck by the gems of a sentence she’ll throw in, like when little Sarah is watching two women argue though she can’t hear what they’re saying and she said that their words formed over their heads like antlers. Too cool! I’m halfway through.

Anyway, sorry this is so long, books are a big love of mine!

If you want to know more about what books are on my list, what I’ve read, and what I’m currently reading, I invite you to connect with me on Goodreads!

Namaste and read on,


May 23rd, 2014

Cezar and I got a few little cameo moments on The Bethenny Show!

Does anyone else love Bethenny or am I just a freak?

Anyway, regardless of the answer to that, I was really happy that this little moment got caught on national TV so I wanted to share it with you!



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